I am feeling depressed but happy and sad at the same time. I am now talking with this guy that is from England and he is the love of my life. But there are a whole lot more to this than what people think. I do get sad but for a different reason. I think that my mom is addicted to alcohol or something else but every night she comes home from work she gets drunk and has more than what normal people can have. I feel like it’s all my fault. I never had been able to say this but I don’t think that a lot of people would suspect that there is but trust me I could write a book about it all. That is how many that I have.